Becoming Nia is a nine‑part narrative documenting my experiences, reflections on social and performance struggles, and, finally, my diagnosis that shaped my identity.
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Chapter 1: How and When I Discovered I Had Social Anxiety Disorder
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For years, I believed she was simply introverted. Then, one late night, a search for answers revealed that I was living with Social Anxiety Disorder. That realization marked the beginning of self‑awareness…
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Chapter 2: Did Anyone Else Have No Friends in High School?
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In high school, I watched as simple interactions developed into friendships and later cliques where peers celebrated milestones and checked in on each other, while I struggled to form emotional connections and find belonging within any group.
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Chapter 3: Why Can’t I Talk to Boys Like Everyone Else?
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My peers were excited about high school socials and movie nights. I, on the other hand, struggled with the prospect of interacting with boys after years in an all‑girls primary school. To cope, I invented excuses to avoid the events.
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Chapter 4: Performance Anxiety in High School
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Despite my initial enthusiasm for music, badminton, and tennis, the fear of being judged led me to avoid participating in these opportunities. I failed to see that the avoidance would only intensify the anxiety…
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Chapter 5: How Do You Keep a Conversation Going?
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On a quiet Saturday afternoon, my study session is interrupted by an unexpected knock. Martin, my course mate, strikes up a conversation. However, I fumble with one-word responses, speaking softly, mumbling and getting tongue-tied. After a short, awkward exchange, Martin leaves and I’m left wondering if I’ll ever get better at connecting with my peers.
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Chapter 6: Just So Much Exam Anxiety
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I was often frustrated with my undergraduate exam experiences. Despite careful preparation, my anxiety triggered memory lapses, second‑guessing, and loss of focus. These challenges left me feeling inadequate and questioning my capability to pursue a medical career.
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Chapter 7: How do I keep a Job with Social Anxiety?
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I could no longer cope with workplace small talk, presentations, ambiguity, and evaluations. So, I handed in my resignation letter, believing I would find a more accommodating place. I soon discovered that every work environment was socially demanding, and the script of resignation would repeat itself again and again.
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Chapter 8: What Happens During a Psychological Assessment?
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I entered the consultation room curious about how the assessment process would unfold and whether it might confirm my suspicions. The psychiatrist sat across the desk, typing briefly before inviting me to speak. Tears welled as I recounted my struggles in social situations. His diagnosis of social anxiety brought a measure of relief, yet confusion…
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Chapter 9: Becoming Nia
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I often wondered how different life might have been if I had recognized SAD sooner. I thought about the missed opportunities, the adults and teens whose quality of life is affected, the parents, teachers, HR professionals and friends who often mistake SAD for shyness and introversion. In that moment, I resolved to share my story…
Social Anxiety Unmasked 